I am not my mother
I shall not ever lower myself
to that lowest shelf
Do you even know me? The daughter you despise? The daughter you throw to the burning heights?
Say my name.
No. Not bitch. Not witch.
Say my name.
Do you remember how you held me when the world wasn’t looking; how you sang me sweet lullabies? So sweet, it almost seems a lifetime ago.
Do you remember?
Say my name.
I’m the daughter you said you always wanted
but
there’s a look in your eyes
always haunted
Say
My
Name
No matter how your twisted heart flaunts it
it remains the same
Say
my name.
I know. Your sensitive hearts hates hearing the spectrum of the narcissistic mother. You need to hear the staving poetry of the loving mother; filling in the missing lines of your broken rhymes.
I have to tell you.
Not to sell to you.
Just to let you know
there are so many different seeds that sow.
I can count on one damn hand, the number of times my mother hugged me. Endless, are the other times I was thrown blasphemous names to digest. But I digress.
Not all is lost. Though, there’s a survivor’s cost, I still survived.
On my own, I learned how to feel love. On my own, I studied hard the lesson of a normal life. I said my own name in the darkness. And in that darkness, I became my own light.
~KendraLynn 3/24/19 ©
Photographer unknown. Found on Pinterest.